I’m me again

After so many years abusing drugs I thought that was who I was. I couldn’t imagine being off drugs completely, even pot! How would I handle a bad day if I couldn’t get high? What would I do to have fun if I was sober? Who would I hang out with if not my current drug using friends? All these questions and more ran through my mind as I finally concluded that I needed help to stop using. I had been in outpatient programs before and gone through countless counseling sessions so I knew that it was going to have to be something more intensive that that. When I spoke openly with my parents who I was living with at the time about my drug problem they told me about some research they had done on a drug rehab in Southern California. I spoke with the intake counselor on the phone and knew that this program was going to be something more challenging than any other recovery method I had gone through before.

At first, my hope was just to make it through detox. After I successfully accomplished that I then wanted to make it through the sauna program, which I did. By that time I had been at the Narconon Fresh Start drug rehab for over a month and was seeing so many changes in myself, I was amazed. Those questions I had before began to work themselves out as time passed and I progressed through my program. I learned ways of focusing my feelings when I was having a bad day or stressed out. I felt like I had control over my emotions instead of trying to cover them up by getting high.

When it came to having fun I realized that I was enjoying my days in rehab and that I was learning how to have fun without drugs. I developed new hobbies and rediscovered my love of reading again. I blew through so many books during my time there! Part of the program has you address the people in your past. I decided that my friends I had partied with and used drugs with were not going to be part of my life when I returned home. It really wasn’t that bad when I actually returned home because I had prepared them for these changes while I was at Narconon. They didn’t understand why I was choosing to avoid them but they left me alone and gave me the space I asked for. I wished them well when I did seem them so I think that softened the blow some.

Years later after graduating from the rehab I still use all of the life skills training I received there. Drugs and alcohol are no longer a part of my life and I choose to keep it that way. It is so awesome to be me again and not controlled by substances and cravings. The life I live now thanks to Narconon Fresh Start is one that I could have only dreamed of years ago. I’m forever grateful.

One thought on “I’m me again”

  1. It feels good to find out that you are the real you again and not the person who relies on drugs every day and can’t be with out them.

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